The thing with being in survival mode is that if all the factors that put you into survival mode in the first place don't all end at the same time, you might find yourself idling in survival mode for an extended period of time and then it can be tricky to pull yourself out of it.
Work was extra busy last week and I actually spent 13 hours there on Thursday, not getting home until after the kids were in bed. The following day I was able to sneak out of work a little early and although the urge to go sit in a pub and have a beer was overwhelming, instead I chose to grab a few groceries and then squeeze in a run before I had to pick up the kids who, thankfully, are no longer sick. It was the first run I'd done in 5 days and unfortunately I've not done one since although I did do a considerable amount of walking on Saturday. Still, I need to workout on a more regular basis. It's vital to both my physical and mental health.
My MIL, unfortunately is still in the hospital due to some complications. We expect her to be released any day but in the meantime, we are working around many round trips into the city to visit her.
This past Saturday morning I attended a large scale birthday party for a 3 year old with Ruby. Lord help me if that didn't suck whatever little mojo I might have been rebuilding.
The rest of my weekend was busy and I didn't accomplish much of anything except exhaustion.
The point I'm making is that although the worst of the worst has (hopefully) abated for the time being, there is still shit going on. And there will always be shit going on. But trying to pull myself out of the survival mode I've been in for over a week, has been tricky. I just can't seem to get a handle on things.
I woke up completely exhausted this morning and stumbled around the house, dodging mountainous baskets of clean laundry that have started to fraternize and breed with the baskets of dirty laundry. When the smell test is required to see if something is clean or dirty - it's time to take a stand. 
I decided to take half a vacation day and used this afternoon to get a bit of a leg up on my seriously lacking housework. Everywhere I looked, I saw mess and it needed taking care of if I was ever going to move forward. How can you make a proper meal when the dishes are never clean or put away?
How can you find something to wear when your closet looks like this? Everywhere I turned, things were messy and dirty and it was so frustrating I couldn't think straight.
And just to add to the challenge, I need to figure out what to make with this...
To prevent myself from giving in to the urge for a nap when I got home from work, I stripped my bed and threw all the bedding in the washer. And then I got down to business. I put my head down and let my determination take over.
A few hours later, I had three of these...
The dishes were done...
I got my closet sorted and the dirty laundry washed and everything was put away.
In the bit of time I had to spare I returned our empty bottles and made a donation to the clothing bank.
And at the end of it all, I was able to sit down to this delicious meal, which shockingly, I did not order in but actually made from scratch...
Tonight I sleep on freshly laundered sheets and tomorrow I will be able to expertly pick out a clean outfit to wear to work.
Survival mode ends here.
3 comments:
Yay for you! Sometimes, it's worth it to simply clean the place up and make a decent meal! When our house starts to reach the "tripping/where the F is it?" stage, I kind of lose my mind (srsly).
I feel happier and calmer when everything is straightened up and in its place. I feel more anxious and upset when there is laundry scattered all over the apartment and messy bed sheets and dishes stacked up. I just wish I could get it to stay in that clean mode for longer than it really does.
Wow, I'm IMPRESSED! What an awesomely great use of your time off!
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